Year 2020 had been hard! First, the corona... Second, the corona... Third, the corona... And, last, again... the corona!! Thats all that is there this year, I guess! It has become such a common phenomena that I have stopped watching the updates. I bet there are many who has stopped keeping tabs on the cases. Life needs to move on. Stomachs need to be fed. Business needs to be attended! Life needs to be carried on. And relationships...
Lockdown and restrictions on interstate movements have been removed but yet the risk... No one can vouch for safety! It's at our own responsibility now to take care of ourselves and others! In this era of limited movement how do one cope with relationships?
Couples stuck in home with kids (online classes and the extra work of keeping then entertained!)... Couples stuck in different states... Unable to meet up. Couples stuck in same state but unable to go on dates like before... Couples engaged unable to fix a date for wedding... Couples newly married unable to go for their dream honeymoon! Couples who meetup occasionally but cant find time for each other like before because of the extra chores at home (as no take aways and home deliveries encouraged!) How do they cope up? Do they flourish and nourish or are they on the path of break up?
As for me, I feel its a miniature version of long distance relationship thats going on.
We meet almost every day (being in same office and all)... We try not to miss having lunch together... A good 15minutes (spend eating and gossiping)! And we try maximum to spend a few minutes before leaving for home. A good 30minutes (idling and walk to the parking)! And, spend a few minutes on call before reaching home and getting sucked into the household chores! Thats about an hour of togetherness as opposed to 3 to 4 hours that we used to share pre-covid era!! Ofcourse there's always the WhatsApp.
But, is that enough? Some days goes without meeting even for a single minute! We get so entangled in the daily routines that we don't find time for eachother! No quality time! I feel like I had more time before and now no time at all.. not even for myself. I wonder whats happened and what would happen. There are days I sleep off exhausted without even wishing him Goodnight. Complaints have started. 'You don't talk like before. You don't spend enough time.' I don't deny them. And, guiltily, I feel I am not trying enough. The life's fallen into a routine... Waking up, household chores, breakfast, office, works (Meetings... deadlines... running around!), Back home... tea dinner and finally, winding up and collapsing on bed! In between all this a hi, a few updates, a few reminders and sometimes nothing!
And, I wonder am I falling out of love or is it just a phase?
I sincerely hope it's just a phase. I hope all stay strong and be there for each other. Like corona, all this is just a phase that would give way to a new a bright morrow. Have faith... Prayers and hopes!!
