The Dark Demon

There was a time when DEATH never affected us. But as you grow up DEATH becomes a reality so dark and as you grow even more, I guess, DEATH becomes a reality so peaceful! I am right now in that middle stage where DEATH is a "SCARY DARK DEMON"... beyond imagination!

Today May 25th 2021, got a shocking news! My colleague's second son, a mere four and a half year old boy, passed away in an accident. He fell into the pond in the courtyard in his hometown and no one realised until it was too late. He was visiting for the holidays. Him and his elder brother... another kid! The mother was away and I can't imagine her grief. How will she bear? A part of her taken away so young... She herself so young! She was here with her third kid, a two year old!

“Grief is like mending a knee. You can mend the knee and make it function, but the knee never actually heals”

                – Jason Reynolds

Everyone used to ask her how she would manage with three kids? And now what... How will she manage not having all of her kids? Worse would be the memories! Bet each and everything would remind her of him and the loss! I am no mother myself but I can imagine the depth of this grief to an extent... a bottomless void! A breakup itself creates such a void and torturous memories... A mother and a child... unperceivable! Have read somewhere... no matter how many kids a woman will have... one kid lost... he would be the most loved of all... always.

“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell”

                      – William Penn

Have only seen similar tragic incidents in movies. Shed two tears and it was forgotten but of course the storyline and a few scenes would haunt at times but they could be conveniently forgotten and dismissed as just a story. But now... this. I seriously wish and hope it hadn't happened to someone I knew. Because I know her and her face comes to my mind... always smiling. Can't imagine sadness creeping into those eyes but the image keeps popping... the sadness.. the pain, and I try to forget. Forget the whole incident.

"It is a curious thing, the death of a loved one. We all know that our time in this world is limited, and that eventually all of us will end up underneath some sheet, never to wake up. And yet it is always a surprise when it happens to someone we know. It is like walking up the stairs to your bedroom in the dark, and thinking there is one more stair than there is. Your foot falls down, through the air, and there is a sickly moment of dark surprise as you try and readjust the way you thought of things."

                    – Lemony Snicket, Horseradish

Praying with hope that she gains the strength to bear and move forward without any negativity in her because its an easy time to get those negative thoughts in. Negative thoughts like all those what ifs and worse, blame! But who can one blame in this? Those who were there around and didn't keep track of the boy? Well, I am sure they would be self condemning themselves already! Or, the parents who were not around? I am sure they would be thinking of all those what ifs now!!

“He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds” 

               – Psalm 147:3

It's not easy and somehow, not right to blame anyone but the mind... it can conjure up so many thoughts... Who will think of right or wrong at this hour? Sense feels senseless!!! Nothing is right.

“We never truly get over a loss, but we can move forward and evolve from it” – Elizabeth Berrien

A loss that can never be remedied... A pain that cannot be erased... A moment that cannot be reversed... Unfathomable and Unbearable. Yet life got to move on accepting and forgiving. 🙏

“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."

                    – PSALM 73:26